Dont let them say you aint beautiful

Lately I've been hard to reachI've been too long on my ownEverybody has a private worldWhere they can be aloneAre you calling me, are you trying to get throughAre you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so f**kin' depressedI just can seem to get out this slumpIf I could just get over this humpBut I need something to pull me out this dumpI took my bruises, took my lumpsFell down and I got right back upBut I need that spark to get psyched back upIn order for me to pick that mic back upI don't know how I pry awayAnd I ended up in this position I'm inI starting to feel distant againSo I decided just to pick this penUp and tried to make an attempt to ventBut I just can't admitOr come to grips, with the fact thatI may be done with rapI need a new outletI know some shits so hard to swallowAnd I just can't sit back and wallowIn my own sorrowBut I know one factI'll be one tough act to followOne tough act to followOne tough act to followOne tough act to followHere today, gone tomorrowBut you have to walk a thousand miles

In my shoes, just to seeWhat it's like, to be meI'll be you, let's trade shoesJust to see what I'd be like toFeel your pain, you feel mineGo inside each other's mindJust to see what we findLook at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woahThey can all get f**ked. Just stay true to you sODon't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woahThey can all get f**ked. Just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humorEverything is so tense and gloomI almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the roomJust as soon as I walk inIt's like all eyes on meSo I try to avoid any eye contactCause if I do that then it opens a door to conversationLike I want that... I'm not looking for extra attentionI just want to be just like youBlend in with the rest of the roomMaybe just point me to the closest restroomI don't need fucking man servant Tryin to follow me around, and wipe my assLaugh at every single joke I crackAnd half of them ain't even funny likeAhh Marshall, you're so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damnUnfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of a clownSo why don't you all sit downListen to the tale I'm about to tellHell, we don't have to trade our shoesAnd you don't have to walk no thousand miles

In my shoes, just to seeWhat it's like, to be meAll be you, let's trade shoesJust to see what I'd be like toFeel your pain, you feel mineGo inside each other's mindJust to see what we findLook at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woahThey can all get f**ked. Just stay true to you soDon't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woahThey can all get f**ked. Just stay true to you

Nobody asked for life to deal usWith these bullshit hands they've deltWe have to take these cards ourselvesAnd flip them, don't expect no helpNow I could have either just Sat on my ass and pissed and moanedBut take this situation in which I'm placed inAnd get up and get my ownI was never the type of kidTo wait but I know to unpack his bagsNever sat on the porch and hoped and prayedFor a dad to show up who never didI just wanted to fit inEvery single placeEvery school I wentI dreamed of being that cool kidEven if it meant acting stupidAunt Edna always told meKeep making that face till it gets stuck like thatMeanwhile I'm just standing thereHolding my tongue up trying to talk like thisTill I stuck my tongue on the frozen stop sign poll at 8 years oldI learned my lesson and cause I wasn't tryin to impress my friends no moreBut I already told you my whole life storyNot just based on my descriptionCause where you see it from where you're sittingIs probably 110% differentI guess we would have to walk a mileIn each other's shoes, at leastWhat size you where?I wear tensLet's see if you can fit your feet

In my shoes, just to seeWhat it's like, to be meAll be you, let's trade shoesJust to see what I'd be like to

Feel your pain, you feel mineGo inside each other's mindJust to see what we findLook at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woahThey can all get fucked. Just stay true to you soDon't let 'em say you ain't beautiful woah

They can all get f**ked. Just stay true to youLately I've been hard to reachI've been too long on my ownEverybody has a private worldWhere they can be alone... Are you calling me, are you trying to get through woahAre you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you so

Yea... To my babies. Stay strong. Daddy will be home soonAnd to the rest of the world, god gave you the shoesThat fit you, so put em on and wear emAnd be yourself man, be proud of who you areEven if it sounds corny, Don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful

Happy to angry

2day was the day that all of 4t1 and 4t2 went to mr tamils house we went there for a moment i was happy because i was with all my friend but after that i was really pissed with some of my friend then dident even help with the food and some of them who where assholes went to smoke in from of mr tamils house at that point i was really pissed and angry to make it short at night i was sad and pissed with something really really angry feel like f**king them on the phone rite now but im now going to do that i have cooled down now but i can tell you one thing(is this bullshit goed on all my friend will lose me).

OMG im going insane

I was born with a dick in my brain, yeah f**ked in the head
My stepfather said that I sucked in the bed
'Til one night he snuck in and said
We're going out back, I want my dick sucked in the she'd
Can't we just play with Teddy Ruxbin instead?
After I f**k you in the butt, get some head
Bust a nut, get some rest
The next day my mother said "I don't know what the f**k's up with this kid!
The bastard won't even eat nothing he's fed
He just hung himself in the bedroom he's dead"
"Debbie don't let that f**ker get you upset
Go in there, stick a f**kin' cigarette to his neck
I bet you he's fakin' it, I bet you
I bet he probably just want's to see how upset you would get
I'll go handle this of course, unless you object"
"Ahh go f**k his brains out, if any's left in his head"


If you could count the skeletons in my closet
Under my bed and up under my faucet
Then you would know I've completely lost it
Is he nuts? NO! He's insane!

If you could count the skeletons in my closet
Under my bed and up under my faucet
Then you would know I've completely lost it
Is he nuts? NO! He's insane!


Did you get him?" Naaw, f**ker tried to bite my face off
I just got fuckin' chased off with a chainsaw
Then he took the chainsaw, bit the f**kin' blades off
Ate the blades, stuck a baseball in a slingshot
Then he aimed at his own face, let the thing pop
Took his eye out, picked it up and played ping pong
Then he played ping pong with his own ding dong
That motherf**ker's got nuts like King Kong
Then he set the lawn mower out on the dang lawn
And he laid all up underneath it with the thing on
Then he took his pants, he took every f**kin' thing off
Everything, except his tank top and his training bra
Ain't he raw? Yeah mainiac, that's shady dog
Man that motherf**ker's gangsta, ain't he dog
Shady dog, what be going through that f**kin' brain of yours
Say no more, what the f**k you waitin' for, sing along


If you could count the skeletons in my closet
Under my bed and up under my faucet
Then you would know I've completely lost it
Is he nuts? NO! He's insane!

If you could count the skeletons in my closet
Under my bed and up under my faucet
Then you would know I've completely lost it
Is he nuts? NO! He's insane!

Don't you know what felch means? (yeah), well then tell me
Would you rather get felched or do the felching
F**k him in the ass, suck the cum out while you're belching
Burp, belch, then go back for a second helping
Can you dig what I'm sayin' man, can you smell me?
I want you to feel me like my step father felt me
F**k a little puppy, kick the puppy while he's yelping
"Shady what the fuck you saying?" I don't know help me!
What the f**k's happening, I think I'm f**king melting
"Shady I just love you boy, I care about your well being"
No Dad, I said no, I don't need no help peeing
I'm a big boy, I can do it by myself see
I only get naked when the baby sitter tells me
She showed me a movie like "Nightmare on Elm Street"
But it was X, and they called it "Pubic Hair on Chelsea"
"Well this is called ass rape, and we're shooting the jail scene"

If you could count the skeletons in my closet
Under my bed and up under my faucet
Then you would know I've completely lost it
Is he nuts? NO! He's insane!

If you could count the skeletons in my closet
Under my bed and up under my faucet
Then you would know I've completely lost it
Is he nuts? NO! He's insane!

too serious in gaming

So boring today woke up at 11am shower brush teeth meet isaac and when to sun plaza meet jermaine wei wrong and john there went for breakfast then we went to sembawnag park. When we reach there we saw isaac lil sis and her classmates swiming in the sea omg that s disgusting lo people urine in there they still wanna swin in there so disgusting lo.Me and isaac as always we distureb isaac lil sis friends we called them names it was so fun lo. After that me john and isaac went to sun plaza to eat because we where so hungry we left jermiane and wei wrong there hehehe after our lunch we went home and i played my computer games while playing i was in a group for a quick run for a instance in the game while player one of the player i dont know what the f**k he was doing i scolded him and i f**K him up over the internet f**king noobs lol. After that went to play basket ball with john and isaac until 11pm then went home took a shower and went to sleep 2moro i got to go meet me girl miss her alot lo. byebye

lol so boring south park for life

today was not a fun day but a day full of crap i spent the whole day watching cartoons (IF YOU THINK IM CHILDISH PLZ F**k OFF) went out to eat at 11am came home just played computer games well that was the only thing i would do well other then house work did it for 3 hours then when to sleep after that woke up and watch south park from season 1 all the way to season 13 well it was one of the most funnest cartoon i have ever seen. while watching south park i started thinking about all my friend because i really care about some of them those of you who i hate who lied to me plz you are not even close to my friendship list well i going off now cya guys byebye

what a f**k up day.

Wah today so boring sia knn spent the whole day watching south park. woke up at 7am went out for a jog then reach home at 8am took a cold shower and went to sleep after that woke up at 12pm watch south park then whole day but while i was watching the show i was thinking about somthing .These past few days i have been thinking about my friends some of them ill miss but some of them i wont.Just looking back at the four years in smb how some of my close friend help me. After the 4 months i was depression i feel different in a wired way when i was depressed i would cry at night.(sorry but i cant tell you) Now i feel batter but alot of my friends say i have change alot after the 4 months of depression i dont know if what they say is true but i like the way i am now. If you guys really think i have change well you will just have to accept who i am............................................................